Kiwi's Journal

8:02PM

2:55PM - i'd do anything, just to fall asleep with you

Good News:
mom found out about me and rudie, and was semi-cool about it. found an awesome dress for homecoming, found out that rudie is for sure coming to homecoming with me, for the hour we will last there. well yeah, the dress is a swing dress in black satin with flowers in light sparkels, sounds kinda dumb, but damn, it's so pretty.

Bad News:
i'm sick, i stayed home today. i can't go see CDM play tonight which makes me sad. so yeah, i've been caughing really bad, almost to the point of caughing up blood, haven't done it yet, but it might happen soon.

Current mood: sick

Current music: smile - unsung zeros

2:53PM - i'd do anything, just to fall asleep with you

Good News:
mom found out about me and rudie, and was semi-cool about it. found an awesome dress for homecoming, found out that rudie is for sure coming to homecoming with me, for the hour we will last there. well yeah, the dress is a swing dress in black satin with flowers in light sparkels, sounds kinda dumb, but damn, it's so pretty.

Bad News:
i'm sick, i stayed home today. i can't go see CDM play tonight which makes me sad. so yeah, i've been caughing really bad, almost to the point of caughing up blood, haven't done it yet, but it might happen soon.

Current mood: sick

Current music: smile - unsung zeros

8:39PM - pictures of me!!!!!!

hehe mikey with a hair clippy thing!!!!!

Current mood: happy

Current music: jimmy eat world - sweetness

3:38PM

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man, i really want that dress. i want a swing dress.

Current mood: bitchy

Current music: Voodoo Glow Skulls - steady as she goes

2:38PM - woke up to my daily headache and the relization that you are gone, oh my sweet darling happiness...

Current mood: happy

Current music: alkaline trio

7:10PM

What just happened?
The Hollywood Empire strikes back
And this time I'm standing in their way
Waited for so long
For this to come along
Now this beauty and beast is starring in my face
Still silent voice whispers stay

(But in the crowd I)
Caught a glimpse of your eye
Everything freezes
I'm in an old photograph
I'm back from the start
Caught a glimpse of your eye
Everything freezes and I'm ready
To give you my heart

Mayday
Too many voices too much noise in my ear
Don't want to lose contact over this black ocean
Now you sing follow love
I'll be safe in devotion

Caught a glimpse of your eye...

Current mood: lonely

Current music: Blindside

7:51PM - it's so sad no one saw it coming, the paper said he hit the ground running...

Current mood: disappointed

Current music: Pietasters - Perfect World

9:13PM

A - Age: 17
B - Best Quality: i'm funny and i make people laugh a lot
C - Choice Of Meat: chicken i think
D - Dream Date: going out with mike : )
E - Ex (most recent): andy
F - Favorite Food: i don't know but man, i love food
G - Greatest Accomplishment: living through my sophmore year
H - Happiest Day of Your Life: going to warped tour, cuz i met mike there
I - Internal conflicts: hmm i dunno
K - Kool-Aid: i wonder if it really dyes your hair, i think i need to try this
L - Love: i think i know how it feels, but i don't know yet
M - Most Valued Thing I Own: myself
N - Name: well the full name is kimberly cecilia rose flischel
O - Outfit You Love: any of my skirts and tops
P - Pizza Toppings: cheese, pineapple
Q - Question you want to ask: will i get into C.I.A.?
S - Sport To Watch: skiiing, snowboarding, skateboarding
T - Television Show: simpsons, daria
U - Unique habit: being myself
V - Vanity yes, or no? i admit it, sometimes i can be
W - Winter: man i love it
Y - Year Born: 1985
Z - Zodiac Sign: Leo (rarr)

?? HAVE YOU EVER
1. Kissed your cousin: no
2. Ran away: almost
3. Pictured your crush naked: possibly
4. Actually seen your crush naked: no
5. Broken someone's heart: I hope not
6. Been in love: its hard to say, i did love him
7. Cried when someone died: i cried really really hard
8. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: yep
9. Broken a bone: too many
10. Drank alcohol: yes
11. Lied: to my parents
12. Cried in school: yes, i found out that Chrissy died while i was at school...

?? WHICH IS BETTER
13. COKE OR PEPSI: it doesn't really matter
14. SPRITE OR 7UP: sprite
15. GIRLS OR GUYS: personly , i like girls better than guys
16. FLOWERS OR CANDY: white roses
17. SCRUFF OR CLEAN SHAVEN: scruff can be cute ; )
18. QUIET OR LOUD: loud
19. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES: brunettes, cuz i am one
20. BITCHY OR SLUTTY: neither
21. TALL OR SHORT: tall cuz i like the way i am
22. PANTS OR SHORTS: pants, i hate my legs

?? WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX
23. WHAT DO YOU NOTICE FIRST: the way they act and if they're smiling or laughing (cuz that's so much fun)
24. LAST PERSON YOU SLOW DANCED WITH: it's been a while but i was skanking last night at CDM's show
25. WORST QUESTION TO ASK: are you ok? (when it's ovious that you're not)

?? THE LAST TIME
26. SHOWERED: last night
27. HAD SEX: never done it
28. HAD A GREAT TIME WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX: yesterday

?? WHAT IS
29. YOUR GOOD LUCK CHARM: my ankh
30. PERSON YOU HATE MOST: maybe sean or maybe brad, cuz they hurt me so much, but i don't think i really hate eather one of them
31. THE BEST THING THAT HAS HAPPENED TO YOU TODAY: getting told i was gunna get a raise at work

?? FAVORITES
32. COLOR: blue, black, red
33. MOVIE: stand by me
34. BOOK: fight club
35. SUBJECT IN SCHOOL: com tech and ap art seminar
36. JUICE: apple
37. CARS: i dunno my explorer i think
38. ICE CREAM: cherry cordial
39. HOLIDAY: i dunno i like tehm all
40. SEASON: winter you can ski!!!!!
41. BREAKFAST FOOD: donuts
42. PLACE TO GO WITH YOUR HONEY: anywhere

?? WHO
43. MAKES YOU LAUGH THE MOST: rudie mike , jess, becky
44. MAKES YOU SMILE: rudie mike
45. GIVES YOU A FUNNY FEELING WHEN YOU SEE THEM: rudie mike
46. HAS A CRUSH ON YOU: rudie mike (at lest i think he does)
47. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON: rudie mike
48. CAN MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER NO MATTER WHAT: rudie mike
49. HAS IT EASIER GUYS OR GIRLS: guys, they don't have to have boobs or children

?? DO YOU EVER
50. SIT BY THE PHONE WAITING FOR A PHONE CALL ALL NIGHT: yeah
51. SAVE AOL CONVERSATIONS: the special ones
52. SAVE E-MAILS: almost every one
53. WISH YOU WERE SOMEONE ELSE: not any more
54. WISH YOU WERE A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX: maybe for a day
55. CRY BECAUSE OF SOMEONE'S MEAN WORDS: yeah

?? BEST
56. COLOGNE: i don't wear cologne
57. PERFUME: pink or lucky you or someother victoria's secret's sent that i forgot the name too
58. KISS: by rudie mike in becky's car on the way home from cera's party. that was one hell of a kiss
59. ROMANTIC MEMORY: read above
60. MOST RECENT ADVICE GIVEN TO YOU: don't smoke more than 2 a day cuz you don't want to get addicted again

?? HAVE YOU:
61. Fallen for your best friend?: no
62. Made out w/ JUST a friend?: yes
63. Been rejected?: oh yes
64. Been in love?: i think so
65. Been in lust?: yes
66. Used someone?: not that i know of
67. Been used?: yep, and fuck you very much
68. Cheated on someone?: it was a kiss and it was wrong, and i felt like crap
69. Been cheated on?: fuck you brad, fuck you sean
70. Been kissed?: yep
71. Done something you regret? oh yes i do

Who was the last person...
72. You touched?: mary
73. You talked to?: online: jess and brit
inperson: mary and matt
74. You hugged?: Jess Krawick
75. You instant messaged?: jess
76. You kissed?: Mike and it was nice
77. You had sex with?: well i've never had sex, so no one
78. You yelled at?: i don;t usually yell, so i can't remember
79. You laughed with?: my family and matt at dinner
80. Who broke your heart?: Andy
81. Who told you they loved you?: andy, but mike said it when he was drunk so i guess he was the last

Do you..
82. Color your hair? yes it's been soooo many colors
83. Have tattoos? not yet
84. Have piercing? 2 on ears
85. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both? only mike, but he might count for both who knows : ) (i'm just kidding mike don't kill me or hate me )
86. Own a webcam? no
87. Own a thong? yes i admit it, but on the number i will pleed the fifth ; )
88. Ever get off the damn computer? yeah i do
89. Sprechen sie deutsche? i used to but that stoped
90. Habla espanol? no
91. Quack? no moo

Have you / do you / are you.
+ Stolen anything? no/no/ yes i am stolen
+ Smoke? yes/sometimes/no
+ Schizophrenic? no/no/no
+ Obsessive? no/no/no
+ Compulsive? no/no/slightly
+ Obsessive compulsive? i dont' really know
+ Panic? at times
+ Anxiety? sometimes
+ Depressed? i can be
+ Suicidal? i was
+ obsessed with hate? nope
+ Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? ew no
+ Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? no way
+ If you could be anywhere, where would you be? with mike dancing in the rain
+ Can you do anything freakish with your body? not really
+ What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others? eyes and smiles
+ Would you vote for a woman candidate for president?: depends
+ Would you marry for money?: no that's just wrong
+ Have you had braces?: oh yeah
+ Do you pluck your eyebrows?: no and i never have
+ Do you like hairy backs?: eww, no
+ When was the last time you had a hickey?: i don't think i have
+ Could you live without a computer?: yeah i think i could
+ Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc...?: yeah
+ If so, how many people are on your list(s)?: 75
+ If you could live in any past, where would it be? i'd have to agree with mike on this, the 20's and the 60-80's
+ Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: shoes can be fun, but no shoes is good
+ What is your favorite fruit?: bananna and apples and strawberris yum!
+ Do you eat wheat bread or white?: rye
+ What is your favorite place to visit?: california and utah
+ What is the last movie you saw?: men of honor
+ Do you kiss on the first date?: yep
+ Are you photogenic?: yep
+ Do you dream in color or black and white?: both

Current mood: happy

Current music: Video Killed The Radio Star

8:30PM

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2:08PM

*1* What's the best thing that's ever happened to you? being born

*2* What's your favorite teacher's first name? hrm i don't remember last name is gaffigan

*3* What's your future going to be like? hopefully being a graphic designer

*4* Do you want a motorcycle? If so, what kind? sure gimmie one

*5* What's the most sexy thing a man/woman can have? personality, sense of humor

*6* If you had to sleep with one celebrity over 41, who would it be? no one that's just gross, well wait, i think jesse micheals is close to that, so maybe just him

*7* If you could change one thing about you physically, what would it be? i think i would want to have better skin

*8* What do you think of Osama Bin Laden? i think should be dead

*9* What's your favorite physical feature? i'm thinking that i don't know about that one... but i have been told i have nice brests.

*10* What is your entire life's goal? to do something with my life. and to be happy

*11* What's your favorite sport? skanking, lacrosse

*12* Artist? not too sure

*13* How much do you love your Dad? intresting question... seeing as my dad thinks very little of me i can't say i love him very much

*14* What's your bra size? i'm a 36 b/c (i'm on the line)

*15* How tall are you? Do you like it? 5'11" yeah i think i do.

*16* If you found out you were pregnant tomorrow, what would you do? i'd wonder how it happend

*17* Where do you want to get married? in irland

*18* What would your ideal mate look like? What kind of car would he/she drive? he'd have a mohawk that he can never get to stand up, he'd love going to toys r us and he'd like ska and punk. i dunno about the car part

*19* Who is your hero/heroine? jesse micheals and tim armstrong

*20* What's the most beautiful thing you've ever seen? the way the crowd looks from being on stage with the bouncing souls

*21* What are your best friends' middle name? william, layne, wow that's all i know

*22* What is the number of the day on which you were born? What time? 11, 12:59 am

*23* What's your favorite class? com tech graphics

*24* Do you ever just want to party? yep

*25* If you could choose one person to love you for the rest of your life, who would it be? rudie mike. cuz there's so much stuff about him that makes me happy

*26* Do you want children? How many? What will you name them? Do you want a specific sex? yeah i think so. i dunno, and i dunno, and no i dont care

*27* What's the best show on TV? zim and sponge bob

*28* What's the best place to be kissed? Anywhere and everywhere

*29* Where do you want to settle and raise a family (if you want one)? possibly california, or utah, so i could ski

*30* And finally, what's the most important thing in life? music, love and friendship

Current mood: cheerful

11:41PM - songs that strike something in me

Bad Religion "Broken"

Current mood: blank

Current music: ska boss - the skatalites

2:26PM

today has been long, annoying and not fun. i found out that someone i know think not so good of me right now and i feel really betrayed because of this. i feel like i'm going to throw up, so i haven't eaten anything sense 5:00 yesterday. i have my senior pictures today at 4 and my mom would let me wear anything i want. oh well at lest i'll have half blueishgreen hair in the pictures =) i finally figured out what i wanted to do for my art seminar seires. it's 3 painted boxes expressing the emotions of happiness, sadness and peace. i hope it turns out right. i feel so crappy right now. i like this song a lot, so thanks to rudie for telling me about it. hey arnold is being annoying.

Current mood: discontent

Current music: buzz poets - angel eyes

8:41PM - lucky denver mint

This time it's on my own.
Minutes from somewhere else.
Somewhere I made a wish with Lucky Denver Mint.
Hurry go on ahead.
Good things won't let you wait.
I'll catch up when we get home.
At home I'll leave.
A dollar under water keeps on dreaming for me.
You're not bigger than this, not better.
Why can't you learn.

Current mood: okay

6:45PM

name = Kimberly Cecilia Rose Flischel
x. birthday = 8-11-85
x. piercings = 2 in each ear
x. tattoos = none yet
x. height = 5'11"
x. shoe size = 9
x. hair color = light brown
x. length = about an inch longer than my sholders
last
x. movie you rented = lord of the rings
x. movie you bought = gee, i don't know
x. song you listened to = alkaline trio
x. song that was stuck in your head = korn song
x. song you've downloaded = angel eyes
x. person you've called = rudie
x. person that's called you = the girl from the photo palce
do you.
x. you have a bf or gf = yes
x. you wish you could live somewhere else = yeah
x. you think about suicide = not any more
x. you believe in online dating = not really
x. others find you attractive = I guess so
x. you want more piercings = yes, eyebrow, cartalige
x. you want more tattoos = yes, calvin and hobbes skanking on my back with unity underneath it
x. you drink = watered down sprite
x. you do drugs = no
x. you like cleaning = no
x. you like roller coasters = yes
x. you write in cursive or print = print
x. you carry a donor card = no, but it's on my licence
for or against
x. long distance relationships = gee i wonder, do you know the answer rudie?
x. using someone = against
x. suicide = against
x. killing people = against
x. teenage smoking = doesn't matter
x. doing drugs = against
x. premarital sex = against
x. driving drunk = against
x. gay/lesbian relationships = if they are they are
x. soap operas = against

favorite...
x. food = anything not panera
x. song = rudie can't fail by bosstones
x. thing to do = be with rudie
x. thing to talk about = why toys r us is so much fun
x. sports = lacrosse
x. drinks = barq's root beer and dr pepper
x. clothes = my alk 3 hoodie
x. movies = stand by me
x. band = Alkaline Trio
x. holiday = christmas i guess, cuz there's snow on the ground
x. cars = vw golf
x. ever cried over a girl or guy = yep
x. ever lied to someone = to my parents
x. ever been in a fist fight = yes
x. ever been arrested = no

what...
x. shampoo do you use = nasty stuff that i don't like
x. perfume do you use = pink or lucky you
x. shoes do you wear = vans or chucks
x. are you scared of = water

number...
x. of times I have had my heart broken? 1
x. of hearts I have broken?: i hope none
x. of times I have been in love: i'm not sure if it was or not
x. of boys I have kissed?: 6 i think
x. of girls I have kissed?: i've been kissed by 1 (very scary, not cool at all)
x. of continents I have lived in?: 1
x. of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends?: about 6 i think
x. of people I consider my enemies?: 1
x. of people from high school that I stayed in contact with?: well i'm still in hs
x. of cd's that I own?: lots and lots
x. of times my name has appeared in the newspaper? 3 times
x. of scars on my body?: a ton, too many to count
x. of things in my past that I regret? not many things

Current mood: bored

Current music: common rider - signal signal

3:59PM - mwhahah i love this song

I'll do anything to show my beloved how much
I care. I feel alive and energized by my love
for this person. I tend to live in my fantasies.

What Goddamnit song are you?

Crack my head open on your kitchen floor
To prove to you that I have brains
Meanwhile tin men are led by little girls
Down golden roads that lead to nowhere

Fine time to fake a seizure
Feel your mouth on mine, you're saving me

Whatever happened to that silly dream you had?
I want to make it real
I'd love to rub your back
Like a plane crash that never hits the ground
I fall in love with you
I'm nose over tail for you
Your voice like the sound of sirens to a house on fire
You're saving me

Current mood: optimistic

Current music: distillers

12:59AM

you ever get that feeling in the pit of your stomach when you don't know what's going to happen, but it feels right? like you want to go change the world or something? or just like your life is good and things are working out? i feel so wonderful right now, i don't know really know why. i just feel so wonderful right now...

Current mood: excited

Current music: Jimmy eat world - Lucky Denver Mint

4:13PM

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12:12AM

i had a really good day, when i wasn't thinking about mike being gone. me and jess drove around a bit listening to alkaline trio. it was loads of fun. then we went to the aquarium with emerson and lisa. emerson kept hanging on me. it was cute though. i baught mike a penguin, now i have to go to hobby lobby and find a little pork pie hat for it. then i'll send it to cleveland. i need to go see him. well that's enough so buh bye

Current mood: calm

12:00AM - mike is leaving =(

tonight was the last night that i got to see mike before he leaves for school. he leaves at 7 am tomorrow. he really is an awesome guy. i'm going to miss him so much. i can't believe that mike is going away, and to cleveland too. i can't believe school is starting so soon. oh yeah, mikey yoder, if your reading this can i please have a copy of those pictures you took today? cleveland is too far away. i hope everyone that met mike thinks that he is as great as i do. i hope mike gets to school safely and everything goes well. i'm going to try to sleep now. i miss you mike...

Current mood: depressed